the bad wife....

So this is kinda a sad post but i hope i get some one that says to me "I DO THAT TOO" or " ITS OKAY HE'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU" I feel like a bad wife most of my life. Treavor doesnt think it, i know cuz i ask him all the time. But i really dont feel like a bad wife. At first it was that i didnt have a job for the first few months of our marriage so i just sat at home like a blob and you think that i actually did something with my time like clean the house, do the dishes, or even make dinner.. Ya right. No i just sat there a slept and watched movies all day. Now i have a job.. well 2 but i never get in 40 hours a weeks so i feel like im slacking on bringing in money for our little family. I hardly ever make dinner anymore i HATE doing the dishes and i have to force myself to clean the house... I feel like most the time im pulling away from Treavor when all i want to do it be closer to him. But i pull away because it scares me to let people in.. hence my crusty exterior. I ask treav to do pretty much everything for me. One day i think that he is just going to start resenting me. I dont know if anyone else ever feels like this but i sure hope im not alone. Well i have decided to turn over a new leaf. Starting tonight. I cleaned our room really good and now im going to get off the computer and go give treav alittle TLC. I guess i just needed to vent...

changes everywhere!

Welp! I got my hair cut..again! but this time i didnt do it i went and got it done.. i like my bangs better now theres not alot of the length just cute! ha. anyways.. treavor was really hoping to get this great new job but he didnt get it which stinks but good news! we are moving! YAY! into a nicer apartment! its a 2 bed room, new, HUGE kitchen and bathroom! its amazing but it is more expensive so we will have to deal with that but it will all be okay. We are hoping to be down in Pocatello in Jan so treav can start on his pre-dental and we can be in school for the rest of our lifes! ha jokes. but really. I thinking about doing my dental assisting this summer! i could be done by the time that we would want to move so it would work out really well and then i could work at a pretty good job while treavor is in school!  i hope it turns out good. other good news im FINALLY feeling better and back to work normally which is amazing! i miss being at work and i HATE being stuck in the house all day. so life is going to be fun in these next few months!!

oh so romantic?

here is the oh so romatic story of mine and treavors first valentines day married!!(dont worry its G rated...basically)

The day started out of me throwing up! then a trip to the doctor(what valentines night doesnt include that right?) The whole day i layed in bed sick as a dog and treavor being the sweetie that he is went and got me red roses, hes a romantic at heart! Treavor atleast took the day off work to stay home a nurse his sicky back to health. So basically all day we layed in bed and watched movies.. well treavors little sister was visiting from Denver but she was staying with jared and natile(my brother-in-law and sister-in-law) So we thought, being the nice people that we are, that we would have her come hang out with us cuz its not like anything was going to go on with us and treavors brother kicked us out of the house last year. Plus the fact that me and nat went to a lingere store so i thought we would give them alittle privacy cuz its not like i was going to use what i got! anyways so katherine comes over and treavor and her go get subway and what not and then some movies.. and what happens JARED AND NAT COME OVER!! what the silly's! i mean common its valentines day! so we have 5 people squished in our little bedroom im sick as a dog our apartment is freaking sick, we have clothes everywere watching the replacements!! bottom line.. best valentines ever! ha!